The below post is a little more graphic that our usual posts, so if you don’t want to read about fluids, etc. then stop now. 

So it’s been one week and two days since I-Day and the waiting has not become any easier. What’s made it more tense is that we were unable to do the second try a week later as planned due to the massive dumping of snow that occurred a few days before. So at the moment, we are waiting on the one insemination. We’re due to test this weekend and if negative, we’ll wait for the decorators to be 100% sure. Once this time has passed, we’ll then know whether we’re to arrange further dates.

Not much has particularly happened since I-Day. The twinges downstairs have stopped as mentioned before, although in replacement of this has come a full blown runny nose and sore throat (I’ve recently learnt that I can take medication during the two week wait so I will be starting this soon). I’ve also noticed more mood swings (I blew my lid at S over something so small yesterday) which is something I don’t think I have ever been victim to (I’m sure S will tell you otherwise); I don’t particularly suffer from PMS/PMT although I do sometimes get overly sensitive out of the blue when I am due on. So to blow my lid and then a few hours later be absolutely fine and happy (and notice the change) made me feel rather odd and obviously very sorry for S.

The main thing, however, that has worried me was that a ton of fluids decided to exit my body almost one week from I-Day. It started when something resembling what you find after you sneeze was found after visiting the toilet. Apparently, after some detailed googling, it may have either been dead sperm exiting my body or a cervical plug. After this happened, I have had what looked like the signs of ovulation.

When I read about the cervical plug I immediately thought that that was it – I’ve lost “it”. I understood what the plugs’ purpose was and I had lost it, however looking on various other sites to what I was on it stated that losing your plug early on is normal and you will create another? Who knew? That said, was what I was looking at the plug? Or was it completely something different? And don’t get me started on chemical pregnancies! 

On top of all of this, I have also recently had symptoms of ovulation (fluids, etc.) except positive OPK’s (but then they were never really my friend). I’ve had a pregnancy like temperature spike but then it dropped significantly and then rose again. As mentioned, I have recently got a cold bug – perhaps that contributed to the temperature changes?

All this monitoring is driving me insane. At one point I think we’ve got the symptom reading down to a tea and our app is looking healthy and quite positive, the next day we’re way off and the app doesn’t know what my body is doing. I guess you can only give it what you’ve got in front of you.

Whilst supposedly waiting during this two week period, we’re still meant to be recording temperature and fluids, etc. which is hard as it makes you feel that you’ve not been successful and you’re starting over, but then if you want to try again then we need this data.

To be honest and to stop there, before I shed too much information; the main moral to this story is that I really need to stop goggling everything that happens and just wait and see, because with most bodily issues; the main starter to every answer is “Everyone is different…”.

I guess my reasoning behind my frantic googling is that I simply want to make sure I’m “normal” or at least safe; and healthy. I want to know whether something is wrong or whether said fluids are normal fluids. I want to know what’s going on and what I should be expecting – but as mentioned, everyone is different. My sister didn’t get any of the typical symptoms of pregnancy until much later on, but by then it was classed within the “1st/2nd/3rd trimester” symptoms.

I take my hat off to anyone who has been doing this for months or years – I really do. I guess over time, if we have to repeat the processes, it will get easier – I hope so. Don’t get me wrong, I have been relaxed (and excited) but deep at the back of my mind, I want to know what the hell is going on.

With this, I would love to know whether any of my changes are normal? Did you have anything strange happen when you were trying? What were your symptoms of pregnancy? Any tips for staying calm during the two week wait?

K