So after the stress of our last cycle and finally getting a BFN after a rather delayed AF; which sent our hopes through the roof, S and I have painfully decided to start our TTC journey again next year. It’s really painful to say the words “next year” but it’s not that far away, and deep down it will probably benefit us to save more money away and relax for the remainder of the year (who are we kidding?).
After sacking our Donor, our roller coaster of a cycle apparently wasn’t over. We had had our insem; which we thought was too early, although our App was initially advising that I had actually ovulated only a day or so after the insem (eek!). Days went by, as well as the date AF was due to visit (EEK!!). I was preparing to test, as well as preparing in my head the message to D to notify him of a BFP but then it came… AF. A week late! I could have died.
It turns out the cold I had pushed everything forward. Despite having EWCM, I hadn’t actually ovulated. My body was just confused and was sending all sorts of mucus as well as keeping my BBT incredibly high. Once we edited the data on the app, it gave us the actual date of ovulation, and it was later… because of the cold. This means, AF wasn’t late if I were to count it in keeping with the actual ovulation. But counting it as part of my normal sequence, I was late. I was pretty much close to exploding.
As much as we would have loved to have got back on the baby-making horse after a disastrous few months, it’s unlikely that anyone would be available this side of the New Year. I know I know, it’s only November, but even if we started emailing Donors now, we still have to compensate for tests being done and contracts being signed, and who knows how long that would take. I certainly don’t want to rush it.
Likewise, we’ve got a busy few weeks coming up so why add the stress of searching for a Donor onto it? (I’ll tell you why, because we want a baby NOW). Besides, if I get knocked up now, I won’t be able to have my mountain of patè and cheese at Christmas.
So, for now, our time can be taken up by buying further Christmas decorations for the house that we don’t need, as well as spending way too much money on Christmas presents for each other.